you don’t know how bad it hurts
until you see it.
i remember clinging to your clothes,
the warmth of your collarbones
your eyes like the starry night.
this started like redemption,
but now it’s just a burial,
the loneliness settling around
we should have known better :
to leave without saying goodbye.
here, i promise i won’t be cruel.
hold my hands and just
trace the bruises.
watch my eyes turn pale.
a thing most fragile and intense.
i will lie awake just to feel your absence
shivering from my skin
to my bones.
do you ache for me ?